Insecure (original poem)

This face isn’t me

It can’t be mine

Can I please go back in time

To sharper jaws

And whiter smiles

To thicker hair

That’ll grow in a while 


This body ain’t me

It can’t be mine

I want to jump forward into time

With less sugar 

With more hope

But to me, I can’t think so


It’ll never happen

It can’t be

I am right now

Right now is me

Wired teeth

And bigger tames 

There is nothing that I can blame


It’s just life

And I must accept it

It’s ok to change and grow


It’s just life 

Nothing is in danger

It’s not like I’ve become mold 


Changing cells

And cutting pills

Trying to make me less ill 

Open ears but silent mouths 

When you said you’d share 

But then left me out. 


This can’t be.


This is me.